Urban Insider Magazine

I like to be transparent, but I like being as private as possible to, that's crazy right? I guess the story I'm about to tell everybody can help people learn from my mistakes. I haven't always been the person I am today, nor was I always the person I was yesterday, but years ago I fell in love. I had just moved to town practically coming from a bad break-up that I still hadn't dealt with along with not quite having my direction in life quite figured out yet. I wasn't in a good place financially, emotionally or spiritually so I had no business loving anybody, but there was this guy literally the most stunning man I have ever seen. When we met I was instantly attracted to him, but we didn't initially get along obviously I didn't force the connection it just gradually changed. It was summer so he had this tan to his golden brown skin that was flawless, perfect hair just walking around the job looking like the perfect manifestation. I couldn't ignore this g...

My pain, my education, and my personal experience has prompted me into writing about my latest relationship, not so much as to air a grievance but more so as a way to heal. I am not the type to get into a relationship with just anyone, nor am I the type to just get into a relationship just for the sake of company, I loved this man, in my eyes he is everything that I have ever wanted. I opened myself up to him completely, all of my raw emotions, all of my shortcomings, all of my flaws he knows them well, and he helped recover from those old wounds I had, he made me so happy and full of life again that I wanted to be his everything forever. His happiness became my happiness, and I put him first while I took a bench seat, I did everything that he asked me to do, and still with all that has been done for him by me he left. In spite of my degree I took jobs I hated to give him everything he wanted, and needed, with him around I didn't need all the things I once needed anymor...

Let me start from the beginning I have been dealing with this guy for over a year now, physically he is stunning he could put any male model or actor to shame, the issue with us is that he isn't pleasing me sexually which frustrates the hell out of me. At the beginning of our situation he had me get rid of all my numbers, even my fuck buddy who was also good-looking but unavailable. I had no problem getting rid of my numbers because I had made a vow to myself that if I were to ever get in a relationship again that it would be forever, I also had no problem being single because my relationship prior to my current guy which was 7 years before him took a lot out of me. These were things he was made well aware of before I decided to let him enter my life, but when it came to sex he made the suggestion that I go outside of our relationship for that. I was shocked because no man I know would ever suggest that to anyone he is fucking with like that, so I kept my vow to...